On the way back home from town. I was so disappointed today :( I hate mr peh today :( argh.

Bus-ed to town with shermaine, vic and tessa after school. Walked to ion then to shaw for lunch. Left to ps to find bowen and marco. Chill-ed do math, met min yen then alex @ cathay.

Walking home nowwww, dad can't pick me fuck. I'm so tirred but I shall do some math later yay ^^.the fucking lambo near my house just zoom pass me :( I waaaant.
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I am so busy :( I'm starting to hate school :( argh.
On friday, shermaine vic tessa nat and I took a bus to town. Made SO MUCH NOISE omg. Went to fep to meet sis (: Came home to get stuff and left home again. Went over to eunice's place. Started bbq with the rest HAHA. Stayed over with bev, watched charlie's angel, tried temporary tattoos. Didn't really sleep much. Woke up @ 9 in the morning for cca promo :( Went to meet nigel @ 12. Changed and headed to heeren/cine to meet marco, alex, bowen and calvin. Left in a cab @ 3.30 for tuition which started at 2.30 hmmmm. Headed back to town to meet mum, dad and sis :D shopped around ion & taka. Bought juicy watch hehehehe <3 i love mummy. Went home @ 10+ yay.

I was sick on sunday :(

Pulau Semakai on monday (: Pics will be up on fb SOON .

Evonne's place on tuesday (:

Mrs tan's today (: HAHAH TODAY'S LESSON WAS FUCKING HILARIOUS. I love today hehe. Ms yeo mistook the projector white screen for the whiteboard and she actually drew on it . Everyone was orhor-ing at her hahahah. so funny. Skipped math remedial :(

Pray that tmr will be a better day yay (:

ok so on saturday I went to ngee ann, skipped tuition. Went out for midnight avatar with them and met marco and another friend. Played pool till 1 and walked to ps. Movie ended @ about 4.30 then cabbed home. Slept only at 6 ): Woke up at 10am the next day and went to church. Came home to sleep after that.

Ok so today, I got back my chinese results. Though its the first time I passed chinese, but hello.. look at the number of people scoring b4 and below. Its just so .. depressing. I was fucking disppointed in myself and felt sorry to all those who have been supporting me like my tuition teacher and my parents. When chen lao shi called me to ask for my results, and when I told her it was a 5, she 'HUH?!' I could sense the disppointment from that one word and I felt super helpless and worststill, I was alone waiting for my dad and .. yeah. Basically I felt like shit ever since I looked @ the damn slip, till now ): I keep breaking down for god knows what reason. Each time I think about it , I will just start tearing. I mean I tried very hard to not think about it, but who in the right mind would forget that fucked up number 5 ): And when my mum called to ask, she was damn calm, so I thought she thought it was ok, until I came back from bishan. She was saying that like she didn't want to scold me anymore, its up to me because its not her life. But its like .. you'd want someone to push you to work hard and at the same time find it damn annoying and hoping that person will get out of your sight asap.. i think you know what I'm trying to say. Life is just like that :( argh.

I'll just take this day as my wake up call for Os. Because this biggest shock of my life probably made me think about what's gonna be ahead and it sorta motivated me to study since I wanna get a 9 to get into international business in ngee ann poly. I know its abit stupid to get this single digit and then enter a poly, but yeah .. it's my decision. And so, from today, I'm gonna work hard, cut down on computer, cut down on money usage (!!!), cut down on meeting awesome people, and everything else that is affecting my study life. This will go on for 9 months and I have to do it, I have to rely on myself now, I have to believe in myself too, I can do it. I shall let God do the rest.

And another thing. its the r/s thing now. Ok i think i shouldn't post it. fuck love, it doesn't exist. ok stop living in denial asshole.

these 5 days at school were boring to the fucking max. I'm so happy I got the seat next to the wall in between the windows on the right of the classroom, perfect place for sleeping ok actually its quite a bad thing whatever lah . Late on the first day of school, the mother fucking prefect booked me for no mother fucking reason when I mother fucking came @ 7.25 which is obviously earlier than 7.30. fuck the prefect, isn't she suppose to know school rules better than I do bloody mother fucker. Class party on tuesday was food-ful. I slept for an hour or 2 while they were watching proposal :( so tired plus my bio clock was .. I mean is still quite screwed :(
Had mrs tan on wednesday and nigel, yi feng, keane and wayne went too. It wasn't even a lesson at all HAHAHA fucking awesome.

I was quite hai in schoool today ): sorry for disturbing all. Went to tamps after school (: I think im going ecp later. and ngee ann open house tmr yay ^^v

And i have the most awesome teachers! i love mr peh teehee.

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I need to start working hard.
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I need to meet some people ):
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I am fucking addicted to empire state of mind omg . I listen to it in the car on the way to school. I listen to it once I'm free in class. I listen to it after school. I listen to it when I bathe. I listen to it when I'm using com, its on repeat. I listen to it before going to bed. I am mad. As usual. I love me.

I'm gonna wrap all my files and some books with pink polka dots wrapper and also make all my files cover page polka dot. and also maybe wrap my table with pink polka dot paper. yay i am so happy. everyone can spot my seat once they step into my class. i am so happy. i am so happy yay i love k.

This post is gonna be damn wordy if you dont want to read I also dont care ok. I dont like to post photos cause my fucking baby #2 too fucking pro then the pic size damn big ah like 2MB you know, so I damn lazy to wait.

Monday
Went to school to buy books then stoned at home. Had fever and sore throat and cough and __

Tuesday
Stayed home the whole day ): Headache. Didn't go supp club gr.

Wednesday
Woke up to bake brownies @ 10. Daddy sent me to mrt @ 1 and took a train down to tm to meet matt, so pass him brownies since the stupid pig hasn't woke up. Went down to simei to pass elyn some stuff with matt and then to tamp to meet ruban and eric lim.

Left for novena @ 3 while they went to town. Met van there and started doing work @ starbucks while waiting for zhihao to come up. THEN, ok i have a very sad life. I was very sad because of some incident 2 weeks ago and this stupid kian came up with zhihao to look for me to tell me that that woman filed a lawsuit cause of that incident (partly my fault) then he wanted me to write a letter and stuff. He also claimed that he came up with zh cause of this. fuckkkk, I didn't really believe then I was damn sad and stuff while they went to smoke behind. After that they came back again and kian showed me the sms his bro, the lawyer, sent him and it says 'tell the girl to write a letter blahblah .. ' and sender : korkor brian _l_ ok then i obviously believe right, you know me. I started crying cause I felt damn bad that I caused so much trouble not because I was ashamed or what shit lah. He also said that he only had to come up with lawyer fee and stuff and made everything sound so serious. I mean who the hell won't believe that right?! fuck then they made me cry for 2 minutes and they were 'eh we bluff you one lah the brian korkor is actually zh' Cb, i got damn pissed and I stared at them. I swear I wanted to punch/strangle/poke them or something omg, then they laughed at me argh. And I started swearing gr. Bloody hell ok nvm. After awhile, went down to mic cause van wanted to see them make candies ): damn. Left @ 8. Suppose to go dbg to meet sher and the church people but change of plans. bishannn (:

Thurday + Friday
Baked again for today's party. Went down to vivo for MARCHE :D Saw nic @ the mrt . Ate rosti again yay . I went to page one and saw my fucking holga oh my fucking god ): and blackbird fly and diana f+ (MR PINK SOMEMORE ):) Left @ 4 for party and spent 1/2 an hour in the bloody carpark looking for the car ): Ser hua, jessie, victor, denise, janice, zhong shun and er yan shuin came over :D Cooked pasta and awesome homemade pizza. Left home @ 10 and cabbed down to srgn and toook a train to vivo. It was fucking crowded and I found out I queued on the wrong side only when I was the next batch to go up the escalator, so I had to walk over to the other side of vivo wtf damn pissed. Matt, eric leong and some of them waited for me outside pet safari. Then went over to no signboard seafood there to look for keith and the rest (: S-ed and stuff while waiting to countdown, played some stupid game. Countdown was abit boring and screwed though. Was suppose to club but I didnt wear heels -.-

Decided to come over to my place for the night since mummy and daddy were not in town hehe. Went down to the entrance to meet ahdi, sam and aloy first then left for serangoon. Cabbed home in 4 cabs and settled down. Played poker throughout + cooked noodles for 2 pigs keith and chowlin + made brownies+ice cream for the rest . I was practically like a maid ok. When ruban, matt, keith and eric leong went out to smoke, the rest collapsed on my couch and slept like logs hahah. Watched I am legend and they left @ 8+ (: Finally get to sleep at 9am.

Slept till 7 and ordered kfc even though my voice is like.. i dont know, its just damn sexy, like a transexual. Suppose to go for party now ): but I feel so dead and weak.