Wednesday, December 31 @ 4:52:00 AM
At least you gave me one last chance to see
you once more . But I don't know what will my feelings be like with that last few moments [ most probably ] with
you . I am afraid that I'll just break down right in your face or maybe my asthma will act up and I'll collapse onto the ground -.- After giving
you the present, I'll just let nature take its course .
You may not appreciate that gift, but to me, that's the most meaningful & important gift that I've ever given to someone .
This person made the greatest impact in my life . Every moment spent with
him made me the luckiest and happiest girl
in the world .
Right from the start, everything was all my fucking fault . I'm not going to blame my hfmd, my competitions, all my auntie uncles cousins sisters knowing about
you, my parents being so protective, plus all my quarrels between my parents and I and also those between
you and me . Yes, I'm suffering now & its because of me, me&me . If not for my doubts about
you, we may have gone far . I know for myself that if we go on like this, there will be no ending . We won't even end up in the same school or whatsoever .
The tears I shed for
you [ even when I'm writing this now ], risking my life for
you, almost
losing my life for
you . All these were all worthwhile .
I will never forget :
- doodling
your name on almost everything I see
- four long smses I've sent
- late night talks
- our toes laughing
- viewing
your fs more than 20 times a day
- the first time I saw
you at bunk chasing after a banana
- the time we met at tm,
at payalebar mrt,
at tanahmerah,
at ps,
at bugis .
- the time when
you got drunk
- everything single thing
you said
- missing
your chalets
- mapling
- showing
you my ezlink at kfc
- playing with the cup
- sitting outside bunk with M&J
- waiting for me at safra, thinking that I could go out
- not talking until we reach bugis
-
you taking so long to choose your food
-
you touching your hot chicken baked rice plate
- stepping & kiap-ing my leg
- watching hsm
- &
150608 .
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A never-ending list ...
Please remember that the memories after March'07 wil be kept in that small frame of yours .
I
don't know how long will I still have to wait .
Till then, Thanks for existing , Thanks for the memories .
I Love You Endlessly, Madly, Wholeheartedly ♥I Love You Keith Tan Zhi Wei ♥
Woke up at 10 . Makeup & change, cabbed to payalebar mrt . Met elyn inside the mrt, saw bev -_- Went to marinasq for kbox (
L) :D:D Sing&sing&sing&sing . Left at 4.30, mrt-ed to dbg went to macs while waiting for rach . Then talk alotalotaloalot of things ]: Wrote ahem's name on the paper using curry sauce and fries -.- Collect things alrdy then left .
Tomorrow's the last chance, it's whether you want it anot . This shall be the last time, i swear .ili.LoveYou (L)
Monday, December 29 @ 4:30:00 PM
fuuuuuuuuuuucked up -'-
If you don't want it, you can just say it . Don't need to give this type of cb attitude .
You don't even give me an answer and right after dota, you just go to bed .
You make me wake up at 10am to wait for you to wake up just to give me an answer .
You know how painful my heart gets whenever I think of it?
Because of asthma, I have to risk my life each time I cry for you . Do you know how I feel everytime I can't breathe properly?
I don't even think it bothers you anymore, all you know now is dotadotadota .
Yes, I hate dota cause it spoils relationships [:
I can only get into garena to see your name there + your friends . I don't know why I get so excited when I see your name appear on the lobby list .
With all my effort and time spent on the gift, this is what I get . Imagine running around the whole singapore carrying a 620g camera everywhere I go . You don't even appreciate it, not even a single bit .
In another 3 days, I will know you for 1year and 9months . I don't know when our friendship will end but if that happens, we will never be going ngee ann poly together or even study together for O levels . The day I give you the present, may be the last time I'm going to see you . So can you? Just one last time .
No matter what happens, You'll still be in my heart (L)
IloveyouKTZW♥
Sunday, December 28 @ 5:44:00 AM
Something Is Simple As Me Hearing Your Name
Puts Me In A Place That I Can't Even Explain
I Really Didn't Know Back Then But Right Now I'm Totally Sure
Baby I Know I'm Your Friend But I Wanna Be Much More
Butterflies When I See You Coming
Oh Boy You Got Me Running
This Feeling In My Stomach Tells Me I Should Be Your Woman
Cause You're The Only One Who Makes My Fairy Tale Come True
How Can Someone Make Me So Sad, But Still I Only Want You to Stay
I Wanna Say I Love You So Bad, But I Dont Wanna Scare You Away
Please, I Wish That You'll Understand
That I Wanna Be More Than Just Your Friend
I Wish You Loved Me
I See You Talking To Them Girls On The Phone
I Wish That I Can Tell Them All To Leave You Alone
Really Didn't Know Back Then But Right Now I'm Totally Sure
That I Wanna Be Much More
This Is Why I Never Really Like Your Girlfriends
Why I Never Really Gave Them A Chance
Why, Because I Realized That I'm Your Woman
How Can Someone Make Me So Sad, But Still I Only Want You To Stay, baby
I Wanna Say I Love You So Bad, But I Don't Wanna Scare You Away
Please I Wish That You'll Understand
That I Wanna Be More Than Just Your Friend
I Wish You Loved Me
Said If You Really Love Somebody,
I Mean Really Really Really Really Love Somebody
Let Me Hear You Say Yeah, Let Me Hear You Say Yeah Yeah Yeah
If You Really Know You Need Them
And You Know Deep Down You're Never Gonna Leave Them
Let Me Hear You Say Yeah Yeah Yeah
Hear You Say Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah
How Can Someone Make Me So Sad, But Still I Only Want You To Stay
I Wanna Say I Love You So Bad, But I Don't Wanna Scare You Away
PLEASE, Please I Wish That You'll Understand
That I Wanna Be More Than Just Your Friend, Baby
I Wish You Loved Me ♥ K
Friday, December 26 @ 11:48:00 PM
Elyn came over at about 12+ then slack around, ate lunch then went upstairs . Did the present, almost died -.- Keep play my camera don't know how to take care properly one, then webcam with ahloy . HAHAHAH :x I'm finally done with the present and I can finally sleep peacefully from now on [:
Cock photos by elyn, lol [ all not edited ._. ]
I shall just save my breath and stop talking about it . ONCE I SAY ALL YOUR THINGS OUT RIGHT, I THINK YOU WILL CRY -'- I just realised I wasted how many hours of my life talking to this fucking childish piece of shit . Okay nevermind, I take back my words and just continue for one last time cause some things talk until i -'- dulan .
zilian also don't need to post your pictures out one right? MAYBE i zilian more than you, but at least I won't zilian FOR PEOPLE TO SEE [ but yours can entertain me. thanks [: ] Hello, WHO WAS THE ONE IN SCHOOL KEEP HAOLIAN SAY YOUR CAMERA VERY GOOD SMLJ? now act want to angmoh what, of cause no bad words lah . I like to swear, you also lanlan . Say what until 2 fep, now your whatever chio bu dua ji tell you then you know what -.- stupid . That's why is singlish, you try fucking hard to talk like one angmoh until talk singlish -.- I TIE 2 PONY TAIL YOU HUANLO, YOU CANNOT EVEN TIE TO DON'T JIAO WEI SO MUCH CAN ANOT [ lol you ownself say one, thanks :D ] AT FIRST GOT WHAT BI THEN WHAT ALMOND? YOU THINK I LIKE YOU BLIND ISIT ? THEN BEFORE THAT KEEP SAY YOU KNOW ALL THOSE KOREAN OR IS IT JAP FRIENDS SMLJ . AFTER KAREROU THEY ALL IDOLISE WITH THOSE TYPE OF THINGS THEN YOU STOP TALK COCK SING SONG ALRDY? SOMEMORE SAY WHAT ALL THOSE LION DANCE PEOPLE BLAHBLAH THEN SHOW PEOPLE YOUR KOREAN OR JAP BOYF PHOTO? THEN NOW YOU LIKE EDMUND SIAXZXZS, SAY UNTIL THE WHOLE WORLD KNOW ALRDY LAH HOR . DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT IS MOR PENG -.- YOURS HAVE, STOP DENYING LOSER . AHAHHAAH, IS IT MISUNDERSTANDING OR IS IT BECAUSE WE SAY YOU? IN THAT GUY'S BLOG . HE SAY 'There was a girl,who is only 4 years old and i'm only 7 years old' YOU GO CHANGE TO 14 and 17 YEARS OLD, I TELL YOU I NOT BLIND ALRDY -.- don't be so lame can anot . Since you TOTALLY DON'T EVEN KNOW HIM [ you wrote it in your blog THAT TIME], WHY THE HELL DO YOU EVEN ASSUME ITS YOU . I DON'T WANT SCROLL DOWN SEE YOU ALSO LANLAN -.- YOU GOT ASK ME BEFORE, SEE YOUR CHAT LOGS . ALSO RACHEL THAT TIME THAT TAIJI , ANYHOW KA PEOPLE JIAOWEI . TELL RACH BEWARE OF ME HAR, CAUSE I'M STEALING ISYA AWAY FROM HER? not only rachel told me about this, so obviously you can't deny about this . THAT TIME WANT SAY GO SCHOOL SETTLE I ALRDY GIVE YOU FACE LAH HOR . AND ALSO, WHO SO DUA CUI GO TELL HER MOTHER ABOUT MY BOYF THEN I KENA KP LIKE FUCK? Even my mother can be witness leh auntie . THAT ONE I SI EH DULAN KNOW ANOT, JUST BECAUSE BOTH OUR MOTHERS KNOW THAT'S WHY I GIVE YOU FACE . YOU BOH TAI BOH JI WRITE MY NAME INSIDE YOUR POST WHO WON'T KP I ASK YOU -.- BECAUSE THOSE PEOPLE MAY BE FROM SCHOOL, THEN MAYBE NEXT YEAR YOUR CLASSMATE, SO WON'T SO MA HUAN =.= SHE LEAVE IT THERE, OBVIOUSLY IS YOU ASK HER ONE WRITE, LATER I SAY SHE HUM THEN I KP AGAIN -.- YOU HAOLIAN ABOUT SO MANY THINGS, I THINK I WRITE DOWN HOR YOU BWG . WOAH SOMEONE SO HUM ONE, MUST LOG IN CBOX AND DELETE ON SIA . YOU SCARED OF SPAMMERS THAT'S WHY YOU SAY YOU WILL DELETE THOSE MESSAGES IF THERE ARE WHAT -.- WOOOOOW, POSER SEHXZSXZ . HOW COME I DON'T KNOW SIAAAA . THERE MUST BE MORE SECRETS THAT I DON'T KNOW AHEM! BTW, DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHATS A POSER -.- you need a dictionary hoh . DID I EVER IN MY LIFE SAY IS SIPEI, YOU KNN STOP JIAOWEI CAN ANOT -'- YOU LINK PEOPLE YOU TOTALLY DON'T KNOW, CELEBRITIES DIFFERENT THING, CELEBRITIES I ALSO KNOW , I LINK FOR FUCK . HONG TAHBOR YOU DON'T KNOW, YOU BEST AT THAT THINK I DONT KNOW . HAHAHAHAAH, PEOPLE SAYANG SAY UNTIL RAPE, AS IF YOUR FATHER WILL DO THAT -.- I FORGOT YOU BLIND LAH HOR . I ADMIT I SEE RAPE SCENES BEFORE, DO YOU EVEN KNOW WTH IS THAT ANOT . YOUR FATHER SAYANG YOU UNTIL CAN BE RAPE HAR? WLAO, I PA TOR TIA -.- WTH ARE YOU TALKING, YOU SAY ' my father's method of sayang-ing me, is kiss here and there, like how those people from rape scenes do. ' THEN AFTER THAT YOU SAY ' that's sayang lah, where got so exaggerating until rape-.- ' WTH, YOU CONTRADICTING YOURSELF . DUMB OR DUMB? Before school end you never lah, its not because you never, is because you got nobody to kajiao -____- yah, good that you know tell your mother all this no point. SO WHY THE FUCK YOU NEED TO TELL YOUR MOTHER ABOUT MY BOYF LAST TIME ?! don't lame -.-
WHO THE FUCK DON'T KNOW HOW TO PRONOUNCE CHENG EE SIA . OKEH MAYBE YOU . CHENG EE CANNOT PRONOUNCE THEN JINGYI WHY CAN -.- people call me yinhui or sophie also can . OUTSIDE PEOPLE USUALLY CALL ME SOPHIE, BUT SCHOOL PEOPLE CALL ME YINHUI I ALSO NEVER KP . NOT LIKE YOU LAH HOR, PEOPLE CALL YOUR CHENG EE THEN YOU DOWN THERE KP LIKE ONE DOG LIDDAT -.- PEOPLE HATE ME I DON'T CARE, GOSSIP ABOUT ME HECK CARE, I ALSO LANLAN . BUT HOR YOU KNOW WHAT, I TELL YOU AH , I EVERYDAY GOSSIP ABOUT YOU LEAAAAAAAAAAA . KNN, I LIKE TO GOSSIP ABOUT YOU LEAAAAAAAAAAA . ITS LIKE THE BEST THING ON EARTH ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ -.-
WAH YOU COPY THAT PART BUT NEVER COPY THE PART YOU SAY YOU NEVER PUT EYE LINER BEFORE?-.- THEN STILL SAY WHAT EYELINER THEN LIAN? MY MOTHER MY SISTER PUT EYELINER, ALL LIAN HAR -'- CB . SO OBVIOUS YOU THINK YOU SO FUCKING CHIO, DON'T NEED TO SAY I ALSO KNOW -.- I CAN'T BE BOTHERED AT THAT POINT OF TIME . NO IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE AT ALL, OBVIOUSLY WE KNOW WHAT ARE BITCHES LIKE . YOU STUPID THAT'S WHY YOU DON'T KNOW -.- YOU USE TO CALL PEOPLE BITCH ALSO, SO YOU'RE TRYING TO SAY YOU ARE A BITCH TOO . HEHEHEHEHE .
THAT POST UPSET ME HAR? I THINK MAKE ME MORE HAPPY LEH, DOG . MISUNDERSTANDING YOUR CB -'- CALM DOWN -_______- MAKE ME MORE HOT [ its not THAT hot -.- you don't know then diamdiam ] BODOH . you treat me real or fake I don't care, don't talk to me best . WHY THE FUCK WOULD I LET PARENTS BE IN INVOLVE IN THIS TYPE OF SHIT -.- MAYBE YOU LAH HOR ? HUM UNTIL LIDDAT -.-
TAGB : YOU DON'T THINK THE WHOLE WORLD AS LAME AS YOU . CAUSE YOU ARE THE LAMEST -.- YOU KNOW WHAT IS PLK ANOT? SORRY THIS ONE DICTIONARY DON'T HAVE [:
AFTER READING ALL THIS COCK, I TAKE BACK MY WORDS FOR THE ' I CAN'T BE BOTHERED' . YOU GOT ANY COCK STILL WANT TO TELL ME , TELL ME STRAIGHT IN MY FACE . DON'T POSTPOSTPOST LIKE ONE DOG -'-
FOR THE REST OF MY POST AND MSN MESSAGES THAT YOU DIDN'T MENTION, I ASSUME THAT THEY ARE TRUE, BYE .Labels: I DONT KNOW WHY BELOW THOSE PARAGRAPHS WORDS SO SMALL . YOU BLIND THEN COPY AND PASTE INTO WORD AND READ -'-
Thursday, December 25 @ 6:03:00 PM
knn, honggan lah hor . people say alrdy then you delete the post and edit into something else . HELLO I AM NOT STUPID [ unlike you ], YOU KNOW WHAT IS A SCREEN SHOT [ nvm, i think you don't know ] . I CAN UPLOAD AND PUT IN MY BLOG LAH HOR . I KNOW YOU READ MY BLOG, yes its you , you don't need to ask me whether its you anot, cause it is [: AND I SWEAR TO MY DOG THAT I DIDN'T TAG THAT , you know most of my friends know my password and stuff . And they go your blog to see your fucking fucked face [ *for entertaining purposes ] . No matter how hard you try to lock your blog I can also use other people's account to view [: smarter abit lah can anot, you lock because you scared people buey song with you then come spam and kp you right? fxcking dog -'- who ask you lah hor, haolian here and there, pose here and there, fuck here and there, and act this act that EVERYWHERE . and STOP LINKING AND TALKING ABOUT PEOPLE YOU DONT KNOW CAN ANOT . YOU THINK MY SOCIAL CIRCLE VERY SMALL ONE IS IT [ its small but bigger than yours ] , YOU THINK THE PEOPLE YOU TALK ABOUT AND LINK HOR, I DON'T KNOW HAR .* i don't want to mention names, NOT because i want to give you face . get a life puh-lease -'- don't keep hong tahbor, and kum lan okeh . I thought you say your father rape you one? alrdy got one guy still want so many, tam xim . Don't keep go around, disturb and irritate people lah hor , see lah, people talk to you on msn also ps you halfway .
P.S. NO POINT CRYING TO YOUR MUMMY AND TELL HER ABOUT THIS BECAUSE MY MUM KNOWS I HATE YOU LIKE FUCK, HEHEHEHEHEHE :D ZI ZAO DE :D
_l_ [ nah, your BEST christmas present EVER [: ]
XMAS EVE [:
Woke up at 10am, watch tv until 11am then went to prepare . While makingup, elyn fell alseep -.- Met at dbg and went to that craft shop, spotlight, precious thots . Went to nici and bought giraffe for my sis [: Basically went around the whole ps looking for the materials for the present .
About 3, mrt-ed to cityhall for the church event and elyn went to yishun and bishan . From cityhall mrt walk to citylink to suntec, fucking far -'- Walk to tower 2 and I took the escalator up and down for don't know how many fucking times . All thanks to rach -.- you have a bad sense od direction . Tell me go toysrus and walk straight, then i wil bang into the wall -.- then ask me wait at carrefour . Carrefour and toyrus 2 different place -.- Damn pekchek alrdy, sms-ed that bastard all the way .
When they came to fetch me into the auditorium, we had to stand to pray or something . But then I sat down because my leg were damn suan -.- Then, we had to wish 10 people merry christmas, can't really be bothered also D:
Ate at gelare, then some of them left, then went to starbucks at citylink, took cock photos . LOL :x
Left at about 5+ and mrt-ed to serangoon . Sis came to pick me [: Went home for family gathering . No gift exchange because my grandfather passed away on christmas 3 years ago ]: then cannot celebrate, grr .
Shut up dog .
Wednesday, December 24 @ 3:19:00 AM
CB PUBOR,YOU FUCKING HELL DON'T HAVE TO KEEP COPYING ME YOU KNOW ANOT . DON'T TRY SO HARD TO MAKE YOUR HAIR LIKE MINE, CAUSE YOUR FUCK FACE = FAIL . SO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES YOU DO, YOU WON'T LOOK NICE OKEH . I KNOW I DON'T LOOK NICE, SO YOU WILL LOOK WORSE THAN ME [: FYI, YOU LOOK LIKE A COCONUT, A BALL, A WATERMELON + YOUR CB FACE . AND STOP ZILIAN-ING, YOUR LAOKOK LOUSY CAMERA PHONE WILL JUST SHRED INTO A MILLION PIECES TOMORROW . FROM THIS MOMENT, STOP COPYING THE WAY I TYPE, TALK, LOOK [ i don't look nice, so you will look worse than my dog ] YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE'S FEP AND YOU NEVER EVEN GO STREET BEFORE, PBK . DON'T STEP LIAN, STEP CUTE, STEP ANGMOH, STEP SWEET AND STEP HAVE SO MANY BOYFRIEND LAH HOR . PLEASE LAH, I SEE YOUR MOR PENG FACE I ALRDY FEEL LIKE SLAPPING, WHO WILL LIKE YOU LAH, EVEN THERE IS, ALL I CAN SAY IS EITHER THE GUY'S TONGUE SPOIL OR NO EYES . THE MORE I THINK OF IT, THE MORE I WANT TO LAUGH . I'M GIVING YOU FACE BY NOT DOING ANYTHING TO YOU OKEH . I'VE GOT ENOUGH OF THIS FUCKING SHIT AND IF THIS CONTINUES, I'M NOT GOING TO GIVE IN TO YOU ANYMORE . edited}
hello, you seriously don't need to show people that guy likes you . I am sure his tongue is spoilt you know, just like yours [: please lah hor, if that girl was you, I will jump down the building IN YOUR FACE .FUCK OFF AND DIE, bitch _l_
Tuesday, December 23 @ 4:55:00 PM
Webcam-ing, voice calling & going out these few days [: Shall blog only about MONDAY! :D:D
Woke up at about 10am X.X for grandfather's death anniversary . Justin wanted me to follow keane to play pool cause he wanted to see me -.- But I didn't want to go because I'll be the only girl and I'll be traveling around singapore . And keane didn't want me to see his friend [ i forgot his name ] He scared I talk cock in front of him .
Okay, apparently, that guy, ff-ed his FRIEND -
yes, its not his gf- 4 times and fucked his FRIEND 4 times . He told me this about 4 months ago, so maybe even more times ^^
After bev & nigel left, went to prepare . Auntie Sindy brought me and sis to kovan mrt . Trained to Simei, waited for elyn -.- She had to walk back home cause she forgot her ezlink card . Then trained to tampines, went to buy the frame, took alot of pictures for ahem . Went mos, open plaza & walked almost everywhere . Did a survey and I wrote down my number on the paper and the fucking person keep sms-ing me, telling to go for what shit event -'- Okay, then while walking to mrt, saw dora and her 2e5 friend .
Next, kallang mrt . Cabbed to kallang leisure, continued with the photos then wanted to go see the ice skating rink . Wth, not allowed for viewing . Called rach and asked if she was there . Then afterthat I saw a guy that look like walter with this chio person beside him . " eh omgomgomg elyn, is that walter?" Then I got excited for don't know what reason -_- maybe, ahem .
After that, walked to the bus stop . Then it started to drizzle -.- I put my camera inside the plastic bag then run . Took 16 to dbg . At the next stop, I was like " eh elyn, kiu mor " then she don't know who -.- then annabel and shabrina and walter and the guy got up the bus . I was like wth -.-
Got down at dbg, went bunk then ps . Didn't really do anything there, took a kfc cup, bought chicken . Saw keriann and huichin . OH YAH, this fucking beng come ask from my number . Elyn claimed that his friend was queueing in front of me and the guy was just beside him? like how the hell would I know . He's also not attention seeking what -.- I didn't know what to do, so I look at elyn then she fucking hell ran away from me -.- grr .
Went to the smoking area opposite there for toilet . Then train-ed to cityhall . When we were in the mrt, elyn realised she lost her cam, so went back to the toilet there . Looked high and low for it, ask here ask there . When we walking out to the smoking area, we bumped into this KIND lian and she asked us if the camera was ours . So thanks them and went off . I told elyn, luckily it wasn't mine, if not I will cry -.- Then she say, " of course lah, twice my camera's price also lesser than yours " HAHAHA ;x Okay, then back to city hall .
Went to raffles city first, then marinasq . Sat down at macs then read magazine and take photos . Left by the back door and headed to esplanade side . We ended up going sight seeing, HAHAHHHAH . From marinasq to clarke quay, walk until my leg suan -_- plus my camera's weight ]: At least I carry my camera there not very weird, I carry inside mrt and shopping centre people keep look at me like siao liddat -_-
Photos :D [ enlarge for a clearer view ]
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some photos not very clear cause I got NO TRIPOD STAND -hints-Today, I was suppose to go out for photos again but then I didn't know I off my alarm until elyn called me at 1+ . Lazy, continued to sleep until 2+ then went around helping auntie mary [: Went to borrow the rest of my 转角遇到爱 but someone borrowed alrdy -_-
Cine, bishan, bugis & suntec . Maybe peeeekchas tmr again [:
Shut up dog .
