At least you gave me one last chance to see you once more . But I don't know what will my feelings be like with that last few moments [ most probably ] with you . I am afraid that I'll just break down right in your face or maybe my asthma will act up and I'll collapse onto the ground -.- After giving you the present, I'll just let nature take its course . You may not appreciate that gift, but to me, that's the most meaningful & important gift that I've ever given to someone . This person made the greatest impact in my life . Every moment spent with him made me the luckiest and happiest girl in the world .

Right from the start, everything was all my fucking fault . I'm not going to blame my hfmd, my competitions, all my auntie uncles cousins sisters knowing about you, my parents being so protective, plus all my quarrels between my parents and I and also those between you and me . Yes, I'm suffering now & its because of me, me&me . If not for my doubts about you, we may have gone far . I know for myself that if we go on like this, there will be no ending . We won't even end up in the same school or whatsoever .
The tears I shed for you [ even when I'm writing this now ], risking my life for you, almost losing my life for you . All these were all worthwhile .

- doodling your name on almost everything I see
- four long smses I've sent
- late night talks
- our toes laughing
- viewing your fs more than 20 times a day
- the first time I saw you at bunk chasing after a banana
- the time we met at tm,
at payalebar mrt,
at tanahmerah,
at ps,
at bugis .
- the time when you got drunk
- everything single thing you said
- missing your chalets
- mapling
- showing you my ezlink at kfc
- playing with the cup
- sitting outside bunk with M&J
- waiting for me at safra, thinking that I could go out
- not talking until we reach bugis
- you taking so long to choose your food
- you touching your hot chicken baked rice plate
- stepping & kiap-ing my leg
- watching hsm
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Please remember that the memories after March'07 wil be kept in that small frame of yours .
I don't know how long will I still have to wait .
Till then, Thanks for existing , Thanks for the memories .
I Love You Endlessly, Madly, Wholeheartedly ♥
I Love You Keith Tan Zhi Wei ♥