I STILL SEE PEOPLE READING THIS BLOG
OK I SHALL JUST TELL YOU ALL MY LJ OK pearlsnpills@lj

i am so nice
i am so nice
i am so nice

As if I have anything to hide
ok I have actually
Shall just lock those
SO YOU PEOPLE CANNOT SEE

I shall abandon blogger for awhile and I'll switch to lj and see how it goes. I don't feel like deleting this because there are so much memories, stupid ones. Hmm but its ok. So yup, if you wanna read my lj then ask me personally. Noone knows about now though :/
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there's school tmr, but I can't get to sleep ): talking to b now. I think w fell asleep alrdy omggggg, he's suppose to call me :( nvm I should just forgive him since he's sooo tired .

Hmmm I don't know what to do now. IF WE EVER MEET AGAIN IS PLaYING on my lappie. I love to listen to my <3<3<3 playlist to sleep :) yay.

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Haven't been blogging. Feel like switching to tumblr because I think that having a brand new blog MAY motivate me to blog more, I'm like that.

Ok soo, march hol was definitely too short for me to spend time with everyone :( including homework. Universal studios and mic on monday. Stayed home on tuesday. Wednesday was tuition day. Thursday was play cum bake day @ my place with angel and grace. Friday was homework day spent at mic (: helped out a lil. Met zh in the morning at farrer park, headed down to mic together. I was the earliest compared to the rest ok, considering I still had to wait for him at the mrt. Helped to pack ^^ W, k came. Had lunched, had gastric, felt so baddddd, but w was there (: so yupppp. Couldn't bear to leave @ 3 though tuition was at 2.30 :/ but I still had to, so yup.. Cabbed down. Had swensens for dinner (: only chef's salad. Yay. Diet.

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Lying on the bed after washing up after coming home from esplanade after drinking after playing top gun @ the fair after stoning @ office after resorts world after town after tuition ...

Soooo I'm very satisfied today ^^ I woke up @ 9 after a very horrifying er.. I'll just take it as a dream and not a nightmare ok. Scare the shit outta me but I went back to sleep and woke up at 12. Turned on mtv while eating my favourite ba zhang and went up to bathe after I was done. Blahblah and left home 2.30 for tuition when is suppose to start at 2.30 ok nvm. Athen and frances didn't go :( so I practically stoned thruout the whole lesson :/ came home to rest and headed down to resorts worlddd, roamed everywhere camwhored like hell ++ went to visit sis @ her office. Her boss was kinda freaky, had much more fun after he left. Left the office @ 10 and headed down to esplanadeeee to meet denise eunice and shan. Denise demanded 15 bux from me ( sis didn't even bring her wallet) and forced us to go for this ride w/o even knowing what is it. So I freaked out and ran towards the fair (cause she was grabbing me) hahahaha it was so funny. So the ride was smth like the pirate ship just that it was caged and it could go 360deg , wasn't that bad. Just that my dress was kinda short and sis forced me to sit in front(she was wearing a dress too -.-)

After we were doneee, headed back to esplnde, got to harry's but there was a mtch going on :( so went to the one oppo. Settled down ++ the waiter kept staring. Not sure whether its because I'm undrerage or what. But I gave my coolest look alrdy :( ordered margarita &.. CALAMARIIIIIIIIIS <3 mad awesome. Chilled +++ and I had a sudden craving for prata house prata so I started whining and stuff. I was kinda high for some reasons, but I could walk straight so it wasn't that baaaad. Chilled moreeee, and didn't have prata in the end. Arghhhhhh. I need mushroom cheese egg (my sis heard it as I want keith egg) lolol ok wtf.

Hugging my new totoro to sleep now. HOW CAN ANYONE NOT LIKE TOTORO. Oh and I didn't meet c today, maybe later (: with GIAM. sexy bitch is on itunes now, ok now its sugar then its breaking. ANBERLIN FTWWWW ok I think I'm damn free. Tyyme tuhh sl33p. Nyt3z p33pO xo

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welcome my new soft toy to the family. I GOT A FREAKING TOTORO OMG SO CUTE OK. 3 hours of guitar hero today. Im gonna sleep damn soon. Gonna meet c tmr prolly (:

last friday, went to cine @ 3 and caught percy jackson. Chill-ed @ kfc, saw minyen marco and some other ppl . Left when the show was @ its climax :( met calvin @ the entrance with his friends ++, walked to orchard central for reunion dinner (: Went to the florist @ mdnight with sis and came home late :(

Woke up @ 9 on new year's eve to bake fruit cake and brownies. Went to novena to meet zh bought loads of starbucks and mac vanilla conezzz and walked back. it was practically a gambling den with the smoke + music + ... Went to zh's house with bryan for a while and I took a train to tanahmerah while they went to town. Met keith, passed him stuff and he walked me to the bus stop and I went home for dinner. Left for wheelock @ 10 and caught valentines day @ 12AM . how cool is that heh. Roamed about town and went home only @ 4 :(

Up at 9 and prepared till 11 and headed out for visiting and gambled till 2am :( same for day 2.

Day 3 .. paige came over. jh, ds, alan, hx, wt +++++ came over for lunch. blackjack-ed and poker-ed straight after that, won close a hundred HEHEHEHE. kept getting straights and dubs woooo + I kept raising the pot and evryone kept calling HAHAHAH HEEEEE.

Yesterday was kinda screwed. Had training till 6 and got home @ 6.30 . Went up to change, grab a sweater + pouch and I SERIOUSLY rannnnnn to the bus stop, ran from the control station up to the platform, ran out from the train and to t3. and i got ther in time thank god. Sent bev off :( everyon was there, and it was so sad. like you know those kinda drama. and worse still, the whole atmosphere was so emotional because most of the people @ the airport were sending passengers from I THINK the same flight as bev. which means that most of them are flying to aussie to study kinda thing. IT WAS SO SAAAAD but i didnt cry hehe. Yup.

Went over the nigel's place and spammed guitar hero like fuck. Misery business, monsoon livin on a prayer and what ive done was on repeat and I played bass throughout and i improved so much hehe. Just got home. AND I WANT TO SLEEP. IM GONNA WASH UP NOW AND I JUST REMEMBERED I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY TO MEET C TMR. GREEEEEAT.

oh and ah, i just found out that some person whom I've never ever talked to, ACTUALLY KNOW ME THAT WELL HUH. start spreading untrue stuff about me and some fucking stories which dont even make sense. hi im a virgin do you want to check it out?! _l_ DO I EVEN KNOW YOU?! no right. so just fuck off and die, seriously

I've been so lifeless ever since ... Er the last time I blogged :( been so occupied with studied and all the shit, no time for friends and family ); arghh. Time to give myself a break this weekend and go.. SHOPPING HEHEHE. I wanna go chanel to see my bag ): ahhhhhhh, hopefully mummy will buy for me, HOPEFULLY :( ahhh its so pretttty. Gonna check out juicy tooo. And go digging for cheaper stuff @ fep. Yaaay.

Can't wait for cny and v days which is in another 9 days !!! And I can finally top up my 20 bucks in my bank account :( so poor. I WANT TO GO SHOPPING AND WATCH MY DOG MOVIE NOW. I feel like eating peach strudel now. I have training today. Tuition tmr hopefully nigel's going too hehehe. Marco's pt on sat? Idk. Omg so bz. Only 2 days how cannnn. Hmm. Ok I'm so hungry, gonna run for chicken rice later om nom nom.
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On the way back home from town. I was so disappointed today :( I hate mr peh today :( argh.

Bus-ed to town with shermaine, vic and tessa after school. Walked to ion then to shaw for lunch. Left to ps to find bowen and marco. Chill-ed do math, met min yen then alex @ cathay.

Walking home nowwww, dad can't pick me fuck. I'm so tirred but I shall do some math later yay ^^.the fucking lambo near my house just zoom pass me :( I waaaant.
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I am so busy :( I'm starting to hate school :( argh.
On friday, shermaine vic tessa nat and I took a bus to town. Made SO MUCH NOISE omg. Went to fep to meet sis (: Came home to get stuff and left home again. Went over to eunice's place. Started bbq with the rest HAHA. Stayed over with bev, watched charlie's angel, tried temporary tattoos. Didn't really sleep much. Woke up @ 9 in the morning for cca promo :( Went to meet nigel @ 12. Changed and headed to heeren/cine to meet marco, alex, bowen and calvin. Left in a cab @ 3.30 for tuition which started at 2.30 hmmmm. Headed back to town to meet mum, dad and sis :D shopped around ion & taka. Bought juicy watch hehehehe <3 i love mummy. Went home @ 10+ yay.

I was sick on sunday :(

Pulau Semakai on monday (: Pics will be up on fb SOON .

Evonne's place on tuesday (:

Mrs tan's today (: HAHAH TODAY'S LESSON WAS FUCKING HILARIOUS. I love today hehe. Ms yeo mistook the projector white screen for the whiteboard and she actually drew on it . Everyone was orhor-ing at her hahahah. so funny. Skipped math remedial :(

Pray that tmr will be a better day yay (:

ok so on saturday I went to ngee ann, skipped tuition. Went out for midnight avatar with them and met marco and another friend. Played pool till 1 and walked to ps. Movie ended @ about 4.30 then cabbed home. Slept only at 6 ): Woke up at 10am the next day and went to church. Came home to sleep after that.

Ok so today, I got back my chinese results. Though its the first time I passed chinese, but hello.. look at the number of people scoring b4 and below. Its just so .. depressing. I was fucking disppointed in myself and felt sorry to all those who have been supporting me like my tuition teacher and my parents. When chen lao shi called me to ask for my results, and when I told her it was a 5, she 'HUH?!' I could sense the disppointment from that one word and I felt super helpless and worststill, I was alone waiting for my dad and .. yeah. Basically I felt like shit ever since I looked @ the damn slip, till now ): I keep breaking down for god knows what reason. Each time I think about it , I will just start tearing. I mean I tried very hard to not think about it, but who in the right mind would forget that fucked up number 5 ): And when my mum called to ask, she was damn calm, so I thought she thought it was ok, until I came back from bishan. She was saying that like she didn't want to scold me anymore, its up to me because its not her life. But its like .. you'd want someone to push you to work hard and at the same time find it damn annoying and hoping that person will get out of your sight asap.. i think you know what I'm trying to say. Life is just like that :( argh.

I'll just take this day as my wake up call for Os. Because this biggest shock of my life probably made me think about what's gonna be ahead and it sorta motivated me to study since I wanna get a 9 to get into international business in ngee ann poly. I know its abit stupid to get this single digit and then enter a poly, but yeah .. it's my decision. And so, from today, I'm gonna work hard, cut down on computer, cut down on money usage (!!!), cut down on meeting awesome people, and everything else that is affecting my study life. This will go on for 9 months and I have to do it, I have to rely on myself now, I have to believe in myself too, I can do it. I shall let God do the rest.

And another thing. its the r/s thing now. Ok i think i shouldn't post it. fuck love, it doesn't exist. ok stop living in denial asshole.

these 5 days at school were boring to the fucking max. I'm so happy I got the seat next to the wall in between the windows on the right of the classroom, perfect place for sleeping ok actually its quite a bad thing whatever lah . Late on the first day of school, the mother fucking prefect booked me for no mother fucking reason when I mother fucking came @ 7.25 which is obviously earlier than 7.30. fuck the prefect, isn't she suppose to know school rules better than I do bloody mother fucker. Class party on tuesday was food-ful. I slept for an hour or 2 while they were watching proposal :( so tired plus my bio clock was .. I mean is still quite screwed :(
Had mrs tan on wednesday and nigel, yi feng, keane and wayne went too. It wasn't even a lesson at all HAHAHA fucking awesome.

I was quite hai in schoool today ): sorry for disturbing all. Went to tamps after school (: I think im going ecp later. and ngee ann open house tmr yay ^^v

And i have the most awesome teachers! i love mr peh teehee.

I need to go shopping.
I need to start working hard.
I need more vitamin M.
I need to meet some people ):
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ok wait I change all to a must.

I am fucking addicted to empire state of mind omg . I listen to it in the car on the way to school. I listen to it once I'm free in class. I listen to it after school. I listen to it when I bathe. I listen to it when I'm using com, its on repeat. I listen to it before going to bed. I am mad. As usual. I love me.

I'm gonna wrap all my files and some books with pink polka dots wrapper and also make all my files cover page polka dot. and also maybe wrap my table with pink polka dot paper. yay i am so happy. everyone can spot my seat once they step into my class. i am so happy. i am so happy yay i love k.

This post is gonna be damn wordy if you dont want to read I also dont care ok. I dont like to post photos cause my fucking baby #2 too fucking pro then the pic size damn big ah like 2MB you know, so I damn lazy to wait.

Monday
Went to school to buy books then stoned at home. Had fever and sore throat and cough and __

Tuesday
Stayed home the whole day ): Headache. Didn't go supp club gr.

Wednesday
Woke up to bake brownies @ 10. Daddy sent me to mrt @ 1 and took a train down to tm to meet matt, so pass him brownies since the stupid pig hasn't woke up. Went down to simei to pass elyn some stuff with matt and then to tamp to meet ruban and eric lim.

Left for novena @ 3 while they went to town. Met van there and started doing work @ starbucks while waiting for zhihao to come up. THEN, ok i have a very sad life. I was very sad because of some incident 2 weeks ago and this stupid kian came up with zhihao to look for me to tell me that that woman filed a lawsuit cause of that incident (partly my fault) then he wanted me to write a letter and stuff. He also claimed that he came up with zh cause of this. fuckkkk, I didn't really believe then I was damn sad and stuff while they went to smoke behind. After that they came back again and kian showed me the sms his bro, the lawyer, sent him and it says 'tell the girl to write a letter blahblah .. ' and sender : korkor brian _l_ ok then i obviously believe right, you know me. I started crying cause I felt damn bad that I caused so much trouble not because I was ashamed or what shit lah. He also said that he only had to come up with lawyer fee and stuff and made everything sound so serious. I mean who the hell won't believe that right?! fuck then they made me cry for 2 minutes and they were 'eh we bluff you one lah the brian korkor is actually zh' Cb, i got damn pissed and I stared at them. I swear I wanted to punch/strangle/poke them or something omg, then they laughed at me argh. And I started swearing gr. Bloody hell ok nvm. After awhile, went down to mic cause van wanted to see them make candies ): damn. Left @ 8. Suppose to go dbg to meet sher and the church people but change of plans. bishannn (:

Thurday + Friday
Baked again for today's party. Went down to vivo for MARCHE :D Saw nic @ the mrt . Ate rosti again yay . I went to page one and saw my fucking holga oh my fucking god ): and blackbird fly and diana f+ (MR PINK SOMEMORE ):) Left @ 4 for party and spent 1/2 an hour in the bloody carpark looking for the car ): Ser hua, jessie, victor, denise, janice, zhong shun and er yan shuin came over :D Cooked pasta and awesome homemade pizza. Left home @ 10 and cabbed down to srgn and toook a train to vivo. It was fucking crowded and I found out I queued on the wrong side only when I was the next batch to go up the escalator, so I had to walk over to the other side of vivo wtf damn pissed. Matt, eric leong and some of them waited for me outside pet safari. Then went over to no signboard seafood there to look for keith and the rest (: S-ed and stuff while waiting to countdown, played some stupid game. Countdown was abit boring and screwed though. Was suppose to club but I didnt wear heels -.-

Decided to come over to my place for the night since mummy and daddy were not in town hehe. Went down to the entrance to meet ahdi, sam and aloy first then left for serangoon. Cabbed home in 4 cabs and settled down. Played poker throughout + cooked noodles for 2 pigs keith and chowlin + made brownies+ice cream for the rest . I was practically like a maid ok. When ruban, matt, keith and eric leong went out to smoke, the rest collapsed on my couch and slept like logs hahah. Watched I am legend and they left @ 8+ (: Finally get to sleep at 9am.

Slept till 7 and ordered kfc even though my voice is like.. i dont know, its just damn sexy, like a transexual. Suppose to go for party now ): but I feel so dead and weak.

SO. went to suntec on xmas eve for event (: Went home @ 7 for party, played taboo, lotto and some other stuff. Night was awesome (:

I was suppose to do homework with zhihao on christmas and he texted me in the morning telling me he had food poisoning. I think I spent my whole day @ home using com ):

Boxing day. Had to go for tuition wtf only ernwei athena, 2 other people turned up ): Went to chinatown for some shit and suppose to have some party at vivo, then changed to smu, and then to cityhall and then to kembangan. So I left @ 6 and headed down to pasir ris cause sher needed help. And when I was on the way there, matias told me zh got admitted to the hospital so I sort of panicked cause I was suppose to go for the party and to ecp to cycle after. So I went for the party for about 1/2 an hour and I cabbed down to kk hospi to visit him. Luckily cycling @ ecp was cancelled. I was trying very hard to find my way up to the ward. When I went there his mum and bro were there, damn scary. So matias and I accompanied him till 10+ when the guard chased us away if not we'd stay a lil longer. Pray that he's fine now (:

I was suppose to meet keith to go church today haha but I overslept cause I was sick ): having headache, cough, sorethroat and fever now ): sad. Waiting for my hai pai tian xin to come out ): I think i'm gonna go school to buy books tmr (:

I Miss ______ alot ):

Everyone please see my fb status. I think you'll like it :(

WHO'S @ ALCOVA NOW?! HEHE.
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Baked log cake today (: will post pictures up soon hehe damn cute. Rach and shermaine came over @ about 4 and baked muffins. They went home @ 9 then I went up to accompany baby to play poker hehe. I pray that I'll be free on the first of jan so I can meet her immediately after she lands (: hehehehe can't wait manzz.

2 christmas events tmr (: hope tmr will be an exciting day :D have to bake fruit cake before I leave @ 12 which means I have to wake up @ 9 AGAIN :(
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