I've been so lifeless ever since ... Er the last time I blogged :( been so occupied with studied and all the shit, no time for friends and family ); arghh. Time to give myself a break this weekend and go.. SHOPPING HEHEHE. I wanna go chanel to see my bag ): ahhhhhhh, hopefully mummy will buy for me, HOPEFULLY :( ahhh its so pretttty. Gonna check out juicy tooo. And go digging for cheaper stuff @ fep. Yaaay.

Can't wait for cny and v days which is in another 9 days !!! And I can finally top up my 20 bucks in my bank account :( so poor. I WANT TO GO SHOPPING AND WATCH MY DOG MOVIE NOW. I feel like eating peach strudel now. I have training today. Tuition tmr hopefully nigel's going too hehehe. Marco's pt on sat? Idk. Omg so bz. Only 2 days how cannnn. Hmm. Ok I'm so hungry, gonna run for chicken rice later om nom nom.
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On the way back home from town. I was so disappointed today :( I hate mr peh today :( argh.

Bus-ed to town with shermaine, vic and tessa after school. Walked to ion then to shaw for lunch. Left to ps to find bowen and marco. Chill-ed do math, met min yen then alex @ cathay.

Walking home nowwww, dad can't pick me fuck. I'm so tirred but I shall do some math later yay ^^.the fucking lambo near my house just zoom pass me :( I waaaant.
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I am so busy :( I'm starting to hate school :( argh.
On friday, shermaine vic tessa nat and I took a bus to town. Made SO MUCH NOISE omg. Went to fep to meet sis (: Came home to get stuff and left home again. Went over to eunice's place. Started bbq with the rest HAHA. Stayed over with bev, watched charlie's angel, tried temporary tattoos. Didn't really sleep much. Woke up @ 9 in the morning for cca promo :( Went to meet nigel @ 12. Changed and headed to heeren/cine to meet marco, alex, bowen and calvin. Left in a cab @ 3.30 for tuition which started at 2.30 hmmmm. Headed back to town to meet mum, dad and sis :D shopped around ion & taka. Bought juicy watch hehehehe <3 i love mummy. Went home @ 10+ yay.

I was sick on sunday :(

Pulau Semakai on monday (: Pics will be up on fb SOON .

Evonne's place on tuesday (:

Mrs tan's today (: HAHAH TODAY'S LESSON WAS FUCKING HILARIOUS. I love today hehe. Ms yeo mistook the projector white screen for the whiteboard and she actually drew on it . Everyone was orhor-ing at her hahahah. so funny. Skipped math remedial :(

Pray that tmr will be a better day yay (:

ok so on saturday I went to ngee ann, skipped tuition. Went out for midnight avatar with them and met marco and another friend. Played pool till 1 and walked to ps. Movie ended @ about 4.30 then cabbed home. Slept only at 6 ): Woke up at 10am the next day and went to church. Came home to sleep after that.

Ok so today, I got back my chinese results. Though its the first time I passed chinese, but hello.. look at the number of people scoring b4 and below. Its just so .. depressing. I was fucking disppointed in myself and felt sorry to all those who have been supporting me like my tuition teacher and my parents. When chen lao shi called me to ask for my results, and when I told her it was a 5, she 'HUH?!' I could sense the disppointment from that one word and I felt super helpless and worststill, I was alone waiting for my dad and .. yeah. Basically I felt like shit ever since I looked @ the damn slip, till now ): I keep breaking down for god knows what reason. Each time I think about it , I will just start tearing. I mean I tried very hard to not think about it, but who in the right mind would forget that fucked up number 5 ): And when my mum called to ask, she was damn calm, so I thought she thought it was ok, until I came back from bishan. She was saying that like she didn't want to scold me anymore, its up to me because its not her life. But its like .. you'd want someone to push you to work hard and at the same time find it damn annoying and hoping that person will get out of your sight asap.. i think you know what I'm trying to say. Life is just like that :( argh.

I'll just take this day as my wake up call for Os. Because this biggest shock of my life probably made me think about what's gonna be ahead and it sorta motivated me to study since I wanna get a 9 to get into international business in ngee ann poly. I know its abit stupid to get this single digit and then enter a poly, but yeah .. it's my decision. And so, from today, I'm gonna work hard, cut down on computer, cut down on money usage (!!!), cut down on meeting awesome people, and everything else that is affecting my study life. This will go on for 9 months and I have to do it, I have to rely on myself now, I have to believe in myself too, I can do it. I shall let God do the rest.

And another thing. its the r/s thing now. Ok i think i shouldn't post it. fuck love, it doesn't exist. ok stop living in denial asshole.

these 5 days at school were boring to the fucking max. I'm so happy I got the seat next to the wall in between the windows on the right of the classroom, perfect place for sleeping ok actually its quite a bad thing whatever lah . Late on the first day of school, the mother fucking prefect booked me for no mother fucking reason when I mother fucking came @ 7.25 which is obviously earlier than 7.30. fuck the prefect, isn't she suppose to know school rules better than I do bloody mother fucker. Class party on tuesday was food-ful. I slept for an hour or 2 while they were watching proposal :( so tired plus my bio clock was .. I mean is still quite screwed :(
Had mrs tan on wednesday and nigel, yi feng, keane and wayne went too. It wasn't even a lesson at all HAHAHA fucking awesome.

I was quite hai in schoool today ): sorry for disturbing all. Went to tamps after school (: I think im going ecp later. and ngee ann open house tmr yay ^^v

And i have the most awesome teachers! i love mr peh teehee.

I need to go shopping.
I need to start working hard.
I need more vitamin M.
I need to meet some people ):
I need _____
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ok wait I change all to a must.

I am fucking addicted to empire state of mind omg . I listen to it in the car on the way to school. I listen to it once I'm free in class. I listen to it after school. I listen to it when I bathe. I listen to it when I'm using com, its on repeat. I listen to it before going to bed. I am mad. As usual. I love me.

I'm gonna wrap all my files and some books with pink polka dots wrapper and also make all my files cover page polka dot. and also maybe wrap my table with pink polka dot paper. yay i am so happy. everyone can spot my seat once they step into my class. i am so happy. i am so happy yay i love k.

This post is gonna be damn wordy if you dont want to read I also dont care ok. I dont like to post photos cause my fucking baby #2 too fucking pro then the pic size damn big ah like 2MB you know, so I damn lazy to wait.

Monday
Went to school to buy books then stoned at home. Had fever and sore throat and cough and __

Tuesday
Stayed home the whole day ): Headache. Didn't go supp club gr.

Wednesday
Woke up to bake brownies @ 10. Daddy sent me to mrt @ 1 and took a train down to tm to meet matt, so pass him brownies since the stupid pig hasn't woke up. Went down to simei to pass elyn some stuff with matt and then to tamp to meet ruban and eric lim.

Left for novena @ 3 while they went to town. Met van there and started doing work @ starbucks while waiting for zhihao to come up. THEN, ok i have a very sad life. I was very sad because of some incident 2 weeks ago and this stupid kian came up with zhihao to look for me to tell me that that woman filed a lawsuit cause of that incident (partly my fault) then he wanted me to write a letter and stuff. He also claimed that he came up with zh cause of this. fuckkkk, I didn't really believe then I was damn sad and stuff while they went to smoke behind. After that they came back again and kian showed me the sms his bro, the lawyer, sent him and it says 'tell the girl to write a letter blahblah .. ' and sender : korkor brian _l_ ok then i obviously believe right, you know me. I started crying cause I felt damn bad that I caused so much trouble not because I was ashamed or what shit lah. He also said that he only had to come up with lawyer fee and stuff and made everything sound so serious. I mean who the hell won't believe that right?! fuck then they made me cry for 2 minutes and they were 'eh we bluff you one lah the brian korkor is actually zh' Cb, i got damn pissed and I stared at them. I swear I wanted to punch/strangle/poke them or something omg, then they laughed at me argh. And I started swearing gr. Bloody hell ok nvm. After awhile, went down to mic cause van wanted to see them make candies ): damn. Left @ 8. Suppose to go dbg to meet sher and the church people but change of plans. bishannn (:

Thurday + Friday
Baked again for today's party. Went down to vivo for MARCHE :D Saw nic @ the mrt . Ate rosti again yay . I went to page one and saw my fucking holga oh my fucking god ): and blackbird fly and diana f+ (MR PINK SOMEMORE ):) Left @ 4 for party and spent 1/2 an hour in the bloody carpark looking for the car ): Ser hua, jessie, victor, denise, janice, zhong shun and er yan shuin came over :D Cooked pasta and awesome homemade pizza. Left home @ 10 and cabbed down to srgn and toook a train to vivo. It was fucking crowded and I found out I queued on the wrong side only when I was the next batch to go up the escalator, so I had to walk over to the other side of vivo wtf damn pissed. Matt, eric leong and some of them waited for me outside pet safari. Then went over to no signboard seafood there to look for keith and the rest (: S-ed and stuff while waiting to countdown, played some stupid game. Countdown was abit boring and screwed though. Was suppose to club but I didnt wear heels -.-

Decided to come over to my place for the night since mummy and daddy were not in town hehe. Went down to the entrance to meet ahdi, sam and aloy first then left for serangoon. Cabbed home in 4 cabs and settled down. Played poker throughout + cooked noodles for 2 pigs keith and chowlin + made brownies+ice cream for the rest . I was practically like a maid ok. When ruban, matt, keith and eric leong went out to smoke, the rest collapsed on my couch and slept like logs hahah. Watched I am legend and they left @ 8+ (: Finally get to sleep at 9am.

Slept till 7 and ordered kfc even though my voice is like.. i dont know, its just damn sexy, like a transexual. Suppose to go for party now ): but I feel so dead and weak.

SO. went to suntec on xmas eve for event (: Went home @ 7 for party, played taboo, lotto and some other stuff. Night was awesome (:

I was suppose to do homework with zhihao on christmas and he texted me in the morning telling me he had food poisoning. I think I spent my whole day @ home using com ):

Boxing day. Had to go for tuition wtf only ernwei athena, 2 other people turned up ): Went to chinatown for some shit and suppose to have some party at vivo, then changed to smu, and then to cityhall and then to kembangan. So I left @ 6 and headed down to pasir ris cause sher needed help. And when I was on the way there, matias told me zh got admitted to the hospital so I sort of panicked cause I was suppose to go for the party and to ecp to cycle after. So I went for the party for about 1/2 an hour and I cabbed down to kk hospi to visit him. Luckily cycling @ ecp was cancelled. I was trying very hard to find my way up to the ward. When I went there his mum and bro were there, damn scary. So matias and I accompanied him till 10+ when the guard chased us away if not we'd stay a lil longer. Pray that he's fine now (:

I was suppose to meet keith to go church today haha but I overslept cause I was sick ): having headache, cough, sorethroat and fever now ): sad. Waiting for my hai pai tian xin to come out ): I think i'm gonna go school to buy books tmr (:

I Miss ______ alot ):

Everyone please see my fb status. I think you'll like it :(

WHO'S @ ALCOVA NOW?! HEHE.
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Baked log cake today (: will post pictures up soon hehe damn cute. Rach and shermaine came over @ about 4 and baked muffins. They went home @ 9 then I went up to accompany baby to play poker hehe. I pray that I'll be free on the first of jan so I can meet her immediately after she lands (: hehehehe can't wait manzz.

2 christmas events tmr (: hope tmr will be an exciting day :D have to bake fruit cake before I leave @ 12 which means I have to wake up @ 9 AGAIN :(
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My Sunday was spent @ flea (: Left home @ 4+ to meet shermaine and rachel then headed to powerhouse. Found jacq outside. The whole event was terrible. It's like so warm and crowded, so obviously you'll want to stay inside though its damn dark, so we went in ... We couldnt even see anything single thing and when shermaine tried on a shoe, noone could see how it looked like. The stuff upstairs wasn't that interesting so stay downstairs. And when someone stops to check out something, it will jam up the whole crowd and we will all get stuck there. And if everyone thinks like me, then everyone will be outside and slowly we can't even move. Had frolick there though :D Didn't go for the party cause so many people couldnt go plus I didn't find any ic.

Went to vivo @ 8 for superdog and the first person I saw there was nicholas tan HAHAHA damn funny. After we ate, we decided to open the super heavy sparkling juice to try and before shermaine could force it open, it went POP super loudly that everyone around stared and there was awkward silence HAHAHAHAH, then all of us started laughing. Talked alot (: Home at 11 .

Today, I slept till 2 and sher called me asking if she could come over so I said ok and when she came I was still sleeping. I was suppose to do homework with her, but she didn't bring anything so we went around searching for recipes, talked alot and she stayed till 6 then we went out together. Both of us went pl, she went to tamps and I went to tm. Something bad happened ): So walked to keith's house and it was so awkward cause like all his friends were there playing poker and I just sat there to watch. Left @ 7 to simpang for dinner with keith, matt, ruban, eric and xue min. Ruban wanted to eat lemon chicken rice and he wanted to ask how to say it in chinese and keith was like ping guo somethingsomething trying to teach him the wrong stuff. Keith's jokes were fucking hilarious. Medium apple = zhong guo, china -.-

Then ruban asked why cannot play poker @ keith's place tmr and keith randomly said his house on fire.

Ruban : "Because I went just now"
Keith : " Nonono not because of that "
Me : HAHAHAHAHAHAH -i was thinking about something else-
Ruban : "okay say! but you all better dont laugh ah "
Keith : "Because ru-ban = "roo-burn" "
Me : HAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH -thinking what was roo, but still funny-
XueMin : "Huh, i thought is r-u-ban= 'are-you-burn' "
Eric : -laugh & showers rice over matt and xm-
Me & the rest : HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
Eric: "charcoal ah"
Me : HAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHH
Ruban : -stares- tell yall dont laugh dont laugh, look @ this girl here.
Me : HAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAAHAAHAH

HAHAHAHAHAAHAH OMG DAMN FUNNY SIA ALL OF THEM HAHAHAAH I CAN STILL VIVIDLY REMEMBER.

Ate and everything then they started to play with the food.
eric : ruban can i have your chicken
ruban : cannn. -puts chicken on the table-
eric : OIIIIIIIIIII -picks up and put back-
All : - started pouring all kinds of sauce and threw it into some juice- ruban, matt and xm played games and the loser will eat that but end up all of them kept restarting the games .

All guys play the number game, like i choose 50 then if the number is 60 then the next person must choose smth between 50-100. So I set the number on my bb and they started guessing, there were 3 pieces of chicken so 3 rounds. First round was ruban, second matthew, third round keith.

Third round:
All : Ok fasterfaster.
Me : WAAAIT -took super long to choose a number-
First person = keith : 18 !!!!!!!!!!! -very excited-
Me : -STARE- HAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAAHAHAH OMG more zun than striking 4d HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA
All : HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Keith: -stares @ me- WTF the probability is 1/100.
Someone : that's why you got it hAHAHHAHA
Me : AHAHAHHAHAHH ALL THE WAY

IT WAS FUCKING FUNNY HAHAHAHAH. Went home @ 9 ):

Just done with 2 xmas cards. And talking to baby(the person I am engaged to on fb) at the same time :D SO HAPPY. she's like all around me. I guess it's fate <3

Waking up at 9 and its gonna be 5 soon omg die.

I'll blog later when I wake up. I'm so tiredddd. Its homework day today, guess who's gonna crash my house later hehe. YAY mum and dad are gng msia on 31-2jan I'm so happpy. Whole house to myself again woooo.
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In the train heading down to power house now (: yay.
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My mood today is totally indescribable in both the good and bad way. Cabbed down together with sher to cuppage for the pre christmas service and I didn't regret going for it (: Had lunch, meeting and stuff straight after. Headed down to fep @ 6 and shopped (: bought only a dress. Wanted to find V at her shop too, but she wasn't there ): Went to meet mummy and sis @ paragon at 9, had some super expensive dessert ._. went home @ 10+. Weixian and alan came over to watch soccer so boring ): Webz with ks + matt +..

I am fucking eggcited now because I'm talking to sherleen loh can you believe that?! after mia-ing for so many years. I miss her ALOTTT. I can't wait to see her when she's back from denmark on 1st jan. Omggg, I still can't really believe it like woahhhhhhhh. No longer my wife anymore (: Luv u baby.

Who's going SWAP & $HOP tomorrow?!?! I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED. Maybe I'm gonna find jacq and v and i'll probably bump into someone loh. Don't know whether I should stay for the fashion show and party though, because so many people cannot make itttt ): and I bet it's gonna be goddamn crowded. How ):

Oh and something weird happened . Like I saw this random stranger + his gf on the mrt some day and about one week later which was yesterday, I saw him on the mrt with a guy and I think he recognises me because I was somehow wearing almost the same thing the first time I saw him plus I bet he recognises my phone and nails and stuff. And today, I saw him at the service, I was damn shocked and I shouted at sher cause its soooo weird -_-

*Pray that I can make it on the 24th 3.30 ):*

okay hi i feel so shitty today u know. BUT SINCE ITS A NEW DAY I SHOULD CHEER UP AND NOT THINK ABOUT THE SCREWED UP DAY.

Ok so sher took so damn long to reach my house, so I was blogshopping = bad cause sufei mei you munny ok. Then when she came, she didnt want to leave -.- and wanted to so badly cause I was mad and woke up @ 8 automatically though I slept @ 5 and cause of that I was so tired that i could sleep anytime ): Finally left for united square, 2 fussy + whiny people together = hell HAHA. She kept complaining about so many things along the way, I did too lah but not as much. Got to mic, ordered stuff, went to watsons, popular and almost everywhere.. and went to the toilet more than 5 times ok. Settled down @ starbucks (: did math wow, and was frightened by pigeons and all the other shit lah. Went back to mic cause sher wanted to see candies. Did work there too, and something fucking bad happened which didn't make me ashame but bad ): I cried like shit cause I felt supersupersuper bad and I am still feeling bad and I will still feel bad. I KNOW IT WAS MY FAULT OK TOTALLY, not gonna elaborate anymore I hate stupid aunties and uncles that make me cry. Zhihao taught me how to cut the candies ok how cool is that ok not very cool cause I wanna make candy more ): Wayne cooked pasta for dinner but I was on a diet so hee, didn't eat that much (: Stayed there till 10 and they were all smoking in the shop wtf.

Why can't I be anyone one else but Sophie ):
Even if one day you've forgotten me completely, please know that I'll forever be behind, loving you endlessly.

i am waiting for sher to be here omg slowwwww. she's suppose to be here an hour ago ): im directing her here, hopefully she doesn't get lost LOL. Yay msn and blogger is back to normal happy me. leaving now byebye